Sometimes in life things don't go the way they should, or the way you think they should. This is my life right now. It's a struggle nearly everyday, but I somehow make it through. I've been going through a lot lately, and it feels like too much. I guess it is too much sometimes. At this moment I am so scared and so nervous and so tired and so confused that it's hard to do much of anything. I don't know what to say or how to act or what is real. I just know that this isn't how I had planned things, and it really sucks!